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MiaAna

I think the proccess of discovering your sexuality whether it be straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, and whatnot is always going to vary and be slightly different for every person. If you were a lesbian or if you were bisexual would you know? Yes you would. It may take time and confusion but in the end you would know.

I discovered myself to be bisexual about four years ago while I was in middle school (which now seems a young age for me to realize such a thing when I barely found myself thinking about guys in a sexual manner until a few years after that). For me it started that in the locker room in school (what a cliche) I was allowing my eyes to jump over girls breasts, over their hips, and down their legs in a way that was more than just comparing. At times I wanted to reach out and run my hands over them, or I found myself wishing to hold one of them close until they kissed me. At times I rejected these ideas and became confused at them. I wasn’t sure if this was just a normal thought proccess, or if it meant anything. I figured that all girls went through this at one time or another and it was just something that would pass. That is until I found myself doing it more and in the same ways I would become turned on by a guy, I found myself becoming turned on by thoughts of woman naked in bed moaning, touching themselves, or rubbing themselves against my body. I touched myself getting off to these thoughts and lesbian porn, and found myself liking it.

Also at several points throughout my life I have found myself crushing on girls in the ways I would crush on a boy. I’m not going to say the feeling of liking a girl for me is the same as the feeling as liking a boy, but either way it’s liking. In the past year I’ve finally done actual sexual activity with a girl, and found myself enjoying that too. Though I do not hold the belief you must be physical with a girl otherwise you are not bisexual as some people say, I think thats ridiculous.

I’m not sure how helpful that is to you…especially because I do remember it being so confusing..but you just have to pay attention to signs as far as horomones/romantic feelings. Experiment and “flirt” with these thoughts so to speak. Maybe you’ll find them falling away, or maybe you’ll find them to be true. I’m sorry I can’t be of more help than that but that’s all I have. Good luck though with figuring things out sweetheart. ♥